Do I Need It?

In a constant financial fever, I started to pay less attention to my personal life. Me and Jake have almost parted, and he is about to leave. I won't stop him as I did it before. Besides, he seems to be involved in some relationship with another girl, so I don't need one who can betray me. No wonder, he says he has nothing to do with her, but I saw the messages... Do I need such relationship?
But that isn't the point, I do not want to think about it.
I see I'm drowning in debt, being lazy to cook food at home and use buses to go to work. Internet gives terrifying data which makes me fear the most awful consequences. In the publication about Credit Cards Statistics and the truth, I found some statements that can calm me down for a while, but I guess I won't be one of those who end up in courts and absolutely low credit score. I found an odd job and it will help me pay the basic debt.

Promises...

Autumn have completely come and I can't but feel like auutmn. Now I've got a secret of extra-super-significance: it seems that I've come to like a boy!!! Nothing more, I swear))) The more I think about it the more strange it turns out to be. I'm not alone now! That's stupid, I know. I promise to stop it))) Though it's a typical thing for my autumn mood.

Another issue concerns finance. The matter is that I'm fed up with my old clothes and want evrything new for the autumn, but for that I need money! Credit cards? I don't think I'll be able to buy only the necessities with cards. Mom will lend me, no doubt, but I'll be so lazy to give it back...
So, I'd rather cut the expenses. It's awful to look at my wardrobe in the morning, when quickness is needed - the numerous clothes are just a great heap! So, no more new dresses. I promise.